What would being crazy really means , what would letting yourself go means , what is like to live the way you want to live , let go off social , religious , moral obligations , test the limits of insanity , be hated , be alone , but at the same time have the whole world inside of you , what it would be like to have such a feeling , to live with a storm inside of you with all its fierceness and ferociousness.People who have done this have been called murderers , criminals ,and in the most harmless way poets and writers who challenged the norms of society. one way or the other at the end had been outcasted by the society , only to be recognized a hundred years later .
Being Crazy or living free is letting fate run your life , this brings me to an interesting quote about fate , given below;
“Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing
directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn
again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some
ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm
isn't something that has nothing to do with you, This storm is you.
Something inside you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right
inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the
sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun
there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand
swirling up the sky like pulverized bones".
The storm is in all of us , but with time , by following the norms , the rules , the policies , the procedures , the so called morals set by society , the strorm dies down and the we are no more alive.
when i saw you , i never realized , in how many ways my life would change , but it did and i am glad it did. The greatest day of my life is when i made you smile , i wont ever forget that day , i was so excited , i was driving recklessly and barely made it out of an accident , i was happy , i was on the top of the world to be exact. So many things i planned later on the following days , but none of it happened , i made a mistake and that was it , we parted ways , i never could again muster up the courage , to approach you again , ask forgiveness or anything close to that , may be it was meant to be , for us to part ways , but your smile will be the one thing that will remain with me forever.I could not imagine to have lived a single moment with out you , but here i am , me weakness mocks me , my fears mocks me , but in the midst of all that , there is this single thought that brings joy into me , calms down the storm within me , lightens the darkness and that in this short life , which passes more quickly than the snap of the fingers , that one day i will meet you , i will see you , i will again make you smile , one day , my life would be complete, as it would have you. This is the hope i live with and this is the hope that keeps me alive.
